Hmmm, i’m sure some of you have noticed nothing new on the the old website lately. I could give you reasons (not excuses) and i’ll get to them (maybe) but for now I’ll try to explain. As with any decision, there are reverberations. Not taking a full-time job means you have to scramble to make ends meet, and pay for another career. I’ve been lucky to find two jobs that work together. They are working well together and flexible. So far, so good. It’s taken a few weeks to get back into a routine. And there lies the problem. A routine. you fall into a routine and you feel comfortable. But you’re forgetting this ‘other’ thing….Hello, music !! The reason you’ve done all this juggling. The reason you started doing what you are doing. The reason you gave up everything else. Hey, look outside (literally, go look outside). It’s nice. Summertime. sun. beaches. patios. social life. You’re supposed to be in a malaise, instead of being comfortable. This is not good (maybe malaise is the wrong word). A music career (or any career) is not comfortable. You’re supposed to be hungry, to move yourself forward. I have a lot to accomplish. There is no finish line. I’m not even CLOSE. So, i have to get back to being hungry and work harder to achieve my goals (which I wrote down tonight). You have to put distractions away. Maybe discipline is a better word? Probably. Whatever profession you strive to do, there will always be times when you say ‘I’ve done enough’ but you really have to look at yourself in the mirror when you say this sentence. Ask some professionals and you’ll hear stories ‘Well, I went to school during the day and was a bartender at night, then went home and did homework or studied…’. I don’t know where they found the energy but, they did. I have to do the same. My time is precious. I should use it better.
PS Perhaps malaise is wrong. Doesn’t matter. It’s staying.